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psychotic — Tue, 23 Feb 2010 17:47:30 +0000

would i ever forgave you if you did it?
the other fool meant nothing to me and now
i pay for what i did
honey im sorry i wish that i could change the past
please stop thinking that im gonna do it again
this time i promise i wont be tempted anymore

i know what goes threw your mind when you look at me
you think im just playing games
i dont want you to think that it was just a game
what i did was wrong but my love for you was true

sorry is not enough of what i did wrong
crying and dying is all i think about
when the pain is so strong and cant hold on
all i can think about is you just to make me strong

people say that im not worth it that you were a fool
in taking me back i feel so bad and im working on forgetting it
the times i cried for missing him, for the thought
that he was the one for me now i see that he wasnt
half of what you are but im down for whatever you decide

you got your reasons why you cant trust me
all im asking is for you love me
i know i caused you pain, i was foolish not
seeing your love for me, but now it might be to
late, it looks like you already made up your mind

guess that’s the reason why you wont picking up
your with somebody new that you get you smiling
i think of you being with her that’s the way we used to be
now what i am to do but sit and wait that maybe
someday you’ll change your mind, until then i wont bother you anymore

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psychotic — Tue, 23 Feb 2010 17:30:40 +0000

you got caught in the act and you couldn’t deny it
you cant even look at me in the face and tell me why you did it
you cheated once before and i forgave you without thinking
but you act like you don’t care and walk away for no reason

i wish that i could just let you go this easy
lying to myself that you’ll never gonna miss me
every time i see you walking by i get a a thrill
but you don’t notice me

i need some who understands me and
understand how hard life is, other guys come around
but my love for you is forever true, they may
had me one night but i’m yours for life

fireworks

psychotic — Tue, 15 Dec 2009 17:38:13 +0000

and now the end is near…ahaha…last saturday the xu days ended..aw…ahehe…grabe ka puno sa school as in..sa gate pa lang daan kay daghan kaau ga pila para maka sulod lang sa school kay para lang jud maka kita sa fireworks display..on which na anad ang mga tawo na sa opening jud..pero karon sa last day na nila gi pa buto..daghan gani kaau na palaw atong opening night but then it was worth it kay nice jud kaau ang fireworks sayang wa nako na picture…after sa fireworks ga ka anam ug kawala ang mga tawo kay mao ra jud diay tong tuyo nila..ug sa dihang mga 11 na nag fireworks tapos sa activity calendar kay 9pm lahi ra jud..pinoy time kaau…ahehe..pero aus lang gihapon kay nag bonding mi mga youth sa soccer field together with adrian….after pag pagawas na namo sa gate kay na amaze ming tanan sa ga fire dance ug gabuga siya ug kalayo..ahehehe…pag-uli pa jud kay ni hapit mi ni ate sa mercury kay nag palit ug ice cream..yummy au..aehhe…hope next year kay mas nindot pa ang xu days and maka play na sad mi again…wew..

day 5: this is it

psychotic — Tue, 15 Dec 2009 17:25:40 +0000

thursday….we had our last practice sa shooter before mo adto school…early bird kaau si kuya morris before 10 am kay naa na siya…wee…palakpakan…ahehe..todo practice gihapon mi..but also having fun…mga 12noon…ni adto mi school, we ate our lunch and nag hulat na magsugod…dili lang kaau nako idetalye kay…tan-awi na lang sa akong facebook…ahehhehe

day 4

psychotic — Tue, 15 Dec 2009 17:24:56 +0000

wednesday…we had another practice and this time around complete nami..yehey! as in like todo practice jud…instead na mag practice ug 1 hour…gihimo namo ug 1 hour and 30 mins…kay para jud ma perfect pag ka ugma…we really enjoyed the moments..having fun with playing our instruments…ang mga vocalist ga enjoy pud…maskin ga ka kulba-an na pag ka ugma…ang linya ni kuya john kay believe in yourself lang jud… kay star kay be confident..ahehe..ako kay hmm….have fun sa stage..mag enjoy..at the end of the day we went home happy…ug salamat sad sa pag hatod ni kuya morris…ahehehe..and we were ready…ready to play and rock xavier…char…aw…

day 3

psychotic — Tue, 15 Dec 2009 17:24:18 +0000

tuesday…we had our practice..sa shooters lang gihapon kay nindot…and barato ra ang per hour nila…ahehehe….ang naa lang kay ako, rose, kuya john and kuya morris but still naka practice gihapon mi…we had fun habang ga practice…si rose ga problema sa bridge na dapit…gina encourage namo siya nga kaya jud niya…mao to…until nga nanguli mi..ahehe…

day 2

psychotic — Tue, 15 Dec 2009 17:23:36 +0000

hmmm…as i was saying we were preparing for a band auditions for batong bitoon para among sa among school…it was a requirement to submit the form which was provided para sa mga banda na mag audition..sa form naay nka sulat na band name..ug sa dihang wala mi kabalo kung unsa among ingalan sa among band…sa akong huna-huna kay dapat naay united…so i consulted my sister para sa name and she was able to come up with MUDI(musically united diverse individuals)and so i txted my bandmates sa suggestion and they are ok with so mao tong na name mi ug MUDI…at that same day nag kita mi sa music studio kung asa iheld ang band audition..after nga hapit nami ma complete kuya morris or c kuya john bato nag suggest na mag practice sa mi ug maskin an hour..so we asked kuya Ian (soundtable officer) if ok lang na mo balik lang mi after and he said na ok ra daw..so we went to patag music studio sa shooters…and there we rehearsed and it was a lot of fun kaau na kulba..ahahah…after an hour we went back and mga 5 or 10 mins sa pag abot namo we went sa music room and played our thing…and the soundtable officers were like saying patys kaau..nice…pero kami kay murag dili contentd sa among pag play…ahehhe..but still were hoping na makuha mi..so mao to we went home…pag kagabii ni adto mi sa balay sa kauban sa church kay mag overnight kay dvd marathon…habang nag watch mi ug “cool runnings” naa koy na receive na text from sountable saying na we are one of the participants na mag play sa batong bitoon and it was like..wow…jud kaau kay wala mi ga expect sa kadghan na nag auditions na mga maau pa jud…we were one of the luckiest..i forwarded the message to my bandmates and they were also happy of the news…the next day we had a band pictorials and also a briefing…we were scheduled to play yesterday (december 3) sayang lang kaau kay wala si star sa pictorial…so mao to na nag decide and band na mag practice inig balik ni star…

banda na MUDI day 1…

psychotic — Tue, 15 Dec 2009 17:21:33 +0000

what is MUDI?hmmm..it means Musically United Diverse Individuals…mao na ang MUDI…kani xa na banda na porma lang ni atong saturday(nov 28)kay pag ka sunday na daun ang audition..pero sa dili pako mag ba padaun mao kini ang nahitabo ngano na buo ang MUDI..last nov 25, 2009 ang soundtable na org sa among school (xavier university-ateneo de cagayan) wherein usa ko ka member…ang soundtable’s aim is to aid in advancing the potential skills among young Ateneans in the Art of Music..kay sa among school man gud daghan mga banda nga naay mga potential and im so happy nga naay org sa school sama sa Soundtable…sa soundtable naay duha ka class ang naa nay banda (exclusive for xavier students) and kami na mga individuals like me…so padaun ko…nag patawag sila ug meeting for all the memember para sa upcoming event which is “batong bitoon” sa upcoming xavier days…its like a school festival and its an honor na maka play ka sa xavier days…sa meeting kuyo ton-ton encourage us individuals na mag form ug band para mag play sa batong bitoon..batong bitoon is not a battle of the bands thingy..mura xa ug presentation something…but ang maka apil ana na mag present sure jud na mga bangi-itan na nga mga banda..mao to nag meeting…after sa meeting nag tapok mi mga individuals para mag sabot…ug sa dihang dili man mag meet ang among mga schedules so mao to na nag decide ang tanan na mag kita sa saturday ug sa dihang ako ang nahimong secretary…ug ni abot na jud ang saturday..we went to music studio,ang first ni abot kay si kuya John, ako, Arvi, Rose, and pinsan ni kuya John na si kuya morris..at first ga problema mi kay wala mi drummer…ug c rose na among vocalist kay ga libog kung unsa iyang kantahon..c kuya morris nga pinsan ni kuya john naa ra siya didto kay mo tan-aw lang siya kay at that time wala say lingaw ug dili pud siya member sa soundtable pero taga xavier siya..then bleesing kaau kay ni naay ni apas and she’s a drummer c star…mao to na completo nami…at first na hour sa practice wala jud klaro as in gubot kaau…nga wala pa ka decide kung unsa jud ang kantahon..until naka decide nga love story by taylor swift ug torete by moonstar 88..after an hour kailangan nami mag stop kay naa nay mo sunod na mo gamit,so nag transfer na pud mi ug lain na music studio..did2 samtang ako nangita ug lyrics sa torete..kani si kuya morris ang guitara siya ug ni kanta siya ug “always be my baby” and we were so amaze kasi nice kaau iyang voice and it was agreed na ipa vocalist namo siya sa band..at that time wala pami name sa band…pag balik nako ni ingon sila na always be my baby na lang daw ug love story and kantahon..dawbi kay si kuya John dili kaau siya hilig ug mga country music kay iyang mga hilig kay kanang genre sa “bullet for my valentine”mga hardcore, c arvi funk and rnb, c star bisag unsa day iya, ako?hmm..any basta ayaw lang reggae, funk..ahehe…mao to nag practice mi ug love story nga among gi paspas…paspas na version sa love story ug sa always be my baby daun kay medyo paspas gamay..mao to nag jam mi…after an hour nanguli mi..ahehehe…mao na siya ang nahitabo….

a friend

psychotic — Wed, 15 Jul 2009 19:08:24 +0000

We met back 99 (i think) he was a bubbly, friendly and very approachable guy..funny pa jud siya..after the camp he stayed at our house kay gusto lang niya mag bakasyon…and at the same time he like this girl and he courted her with all the chocolates and ending ang chocolate ako ra gihapon ni kaon…ahehehe…gi sugo ko niya ug laba sa iyang pants na hastang ka dako ug grabe ka bug-at in exchange iya ko librehan ug jolibee man cguro to or basta kay food siya…i did the laundry and yes iya kung gi librehan after..cge lang mi ug chikka niya ato dugay kaau ma tulog kay cge istorya ug tan-aw t.v kay cable pa man sa una..we shared stories, mga drama sa buhay and all…and then we went back to cebu….

Every time me and my family went to cebu, dili jud maiwasan nga mag kita mi…his like a brother to me and a best bud every time mo adto ko sa cebu…katong 1st camp sa cebu,toledo…pag kita namo mura jud ug 1 ka million years wa gakita..ahehehe…ing-ana mi ka close sa una…pag ka 2nd day we chatted, catching up with each other…and he shared this song “gatherings of flowers i do it everyday…” i forgot the lyrics na daun..gi kanta sa nila pangharana sa amo atong dance night…it was good..the song was good…nalimot lang jud ko sa lyrics…his family and my family were close…ever since nga nag stay siya sa balay..he was the first adopted brother sa family..siya sad ang ga pangita-on ni mama usahay inig maka adto ug cebu..close naman gud siya sa amo…and then years passed nga nabalitaan na lang namo nga naa siya’y baby and family…wala pa jud mi nag kita ato na time kay dugay kaau sila ni abot and mabiyaan na mi sa barko kung hulaton namo sila with his baby…mao na tana to akong last na kita niya….

ug sa dihang ako na shock ganina pag txt ni marmie he passed away..dili ko kato-o but reality bites…his gone..an old friend…a best bud..a brother….thanks for he memories we shared together, dili jud ka namo malimtan….your always be in our memories…JACOB, ma miss ka namo….

back to school

psychotic — Tue, 30 Jun 2009 15:48:52 +0000

hmm..after a month karon pa ko ka post balik..ahehe..wala man gud koy ma post wui…shcool is back na jud kaau, ma feel na jud nako ang pressure…pressure na maka graduate karon na sem..sayang man gud wui…bahala ug medyo lisod ang mga subjects kailangan ug dapat jud maka pasar…usahay gani kay di ko katulog kay mao jud na ang naa sa akong huna-huna before ko matulog usahay pa jud madamgo nako ang gi pang discuss..ahaha…na haller naman cguro ko wui..bitaw ay so obsessed na maka graduate karon na sem pati sa akong damgo about gihapon school…what in the world kaau…unta wui maka grad na jud kay mura man ug ika 3 na nako ni na 4th yr gihapon akong standing..ahehehe…..hahaiz…until here sa kow..kay naa pakoy chemistry na assignment…